Just got home, that was brutal. All of the substances are just a cope trying to feel neurotypical while being in public, but obviously that isn’t a real solution. The worst part of tonight was my face descending from the life support mask.

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THIS AFTERNOON ISTG I SAID TO MYSELF "NO METHODS NO NOTHING,IM SHIFTING RN IDGAF"THEN I HAD A LUCID DREAM(took me a while to realize) THEN I MADE A PORTAL AND SHIFTED. well the reality wasn't in my mind, but i shifted to my then streamer dr, wasn't there for a while, I got out. ANYWAYS IMMA GO BYE BYE~~~ GOOD LUCK SHIFTING~~~~

Btw all the symbolism checks out; the green lightning everywhere in half life 1 and the orange on gordan. Gordan is the antichrist, alyx is a mix of all races aka a representation of humanity, gman is satan and all the aliens are other demonic factions, eli vance, eli is God in hebrew.

Every game is soft disclosure with what they want to happen