"I am the most selfish person in the world. I don't deserve you, but I can't let anyone else deserve you either. This is my curse."



"I turn away, pretending to look out the window. My reflection is a pale, rigid mask of calm. Inside, however, there is a hurricane. Hell. Does she think I'm perfect? She doesn't see this monstrous selfishness, this poisonous jealousy that eats me from the inside...
... And yet... I can't leave. I'm weak. I'm chained to her stronger than any chains. The thought that his hand will touch her hand, that he will hear her laughter every day, and I won't... it's unbearable. It's worse than fire. Worse than thirst."




"Sometimes I think I should just disappear and let you have a normal life, with someone who has a heartbeat... But I'm too weak. The thought of you smiling at him causes me physical pain."