"... a toxic combination of miserable, arrogant, and stubborn ... a creature most cancerous."


There are those who only knew me from high school, or earlier. Some knew me only from college. Some only knew me from Minecraft communities, or TF2 servers, or Reddit groups.
People knew me from vastly different walks of life.
Some knew me as a nerd; as a creative; as a flirt; as a clown.
How can I reconcile all of that into one being, let alone a description?
... None of that history means anything anymore.
Legacy is a fiction.
Tell yourselves whatever it is you'd like to hear.
Otherwise, let it turn to dust, and erase me from the record.

The Karkinoid is a tumor in the shape of a human being.

I have been known as BomberBallad, as AtlasDamascus, and most recently as Karkinoid (and whatever variations and nicknames derived from the various aliases).

You may call me what you like; I prefer not to be referred to at all.

I exist in my own corner of the world, withdrawn and retired from everything I was once a part of.
In time, I would like to disappear completely.


Yes. I am reachable in a limited capacity, and I will respond to any messages as soon as I see them. For those with no direct means of contact, my email is:
My Discord server link:
https://discord.com/invite/NZwrHndBVH

That said, the person you once knew has disappeared, if you had known him. I am something else.


I came up with it by combining the Greek word for crab, "Karkinos" , with the "-oid" suffix.
The resultant meaning becomes "something that is part of the crab family" or "is crab-like."

It can also mean "cancerous." In fact, a "carcinoid" is a type of tumor.

No. I regret everything I have ever done in my entire life.