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And I guess that's why I'm so messed up. She may not hate me, but after the disgusting things I subjected her to, and the constant annoyance I became, she can't stand or even fathom being around or talking to me. It's such a far cry from how things were those years ago. She used to adore me, and I used to be the most positive influence she ever had. Now she's looking forward towards her future, and I'm proud of her for that. As soon as her mind made up that I was toxic and that I'd never change as a human being, she split from me and she never planned to look back. I kept dragging her down, I didn't want to let her go.

She's my shining star and I'll always be living in the past where she doesn't belong. Where the rest of you don't need to be dragged down to as well.

I'm sorry.

I don't know if a notification pops up when comments are posted in groups or whathave you, but I needed to do something to formerly apologize to you guys, you've been great friends to me ever since I met you, and even after I started doing what I did, you continued to try, and try, and try.

I know aside from Tanner, you guys never had that chance to meet her, the reason I became the way I am. I don't have a clue what she does or how she is these days, but I imagine she's doing just fine now. There was a time when just being around me helped her, and I let all of that get to my head and continued to make mistake after countless mistake. She's a wonderful person and I wish her only the best in life, I don't image any of you will ever have the opportunity to understand her like I did, but I sincerely doubt I'll ever have the chance to communicate with someone so amazing ever again.

I'm genuinely sorry about everything. I've been distant and after maybe September I've barely even tried to let you guys help me. I am unable to deal with what's going on with me and it makes it impossible for me to even be among friends, regardless you guys didn't deserve to just be ghosted or avoided, none of you are the reason I'm the way I am. I can't just come back, I'm a mess and I can't do anything about it.