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How did you find me?






















Milla...




























everyday I feel like killing myself... My mind just reminds me I should... and I can't do anything about it...
I prayed and asked for help for so many months now.. and I know I cannot possibly continue in life after so much happened in such a small amount of time, but I dunno when I should kill myself...










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I'm not afraid of what will happen to me, anymore... Life has shown me the most horrible things I've ever seen..
If you stop existing, it's fine. That's the game... It happens. You won't be the first or the last person to clock-out.. Sh!t happens, you messed up your time-line and made the wrong choices; you could've *been someone*... but atleast I'm no longer anxious about "leaving", here, anymore.. Whatever happens, happens... I mean, I literally have nobody here anymore to even give a ♥♥♥♥... I'm a number.


... But damn, man... the fact I just keep failing... I was never meant to be someone in the first place...
if this is the last time I'm on here, then peace out, everyone. If I ever said I love you, I meant that sh*t





























































































































names: Max, Exara, and now oddz, yo
im back and ♥♥♥♥
Edit: 8/7/22 - Damn, I wish I still had my 2018 Murder friends from cG... crazy how time passes... If you aren't active in the moment, four years will pass and you will feel you have nothing to show for it... and it feels like it, ngl.... Life hit me hard af.